Mainly, because, man, my brain has no idea about the solutions to so many of the worldly issues of this day.  So, I am not completely familiar with all the content of the amount of backs and forth between you wild cats that are uncontrollable.

And lately, as I age, I continue to grow so dismayed with where this country is and especially when thought of where it could be and where it most likely will never be. 

I mean, get this - Finland is now said to be the happiest country on the planet and it is believed one of the major reasons is that Fin's have become so good at feeling no guilt over doing nothing.  THAT is what I'm striving for. 

I'm like Tommy Lee Jones in No Country for Old Men - I feel vastly overmatched by all of it - life, American life, politics, music (that's another story), aging, death - all of it. 

And it's fair to suggest, I just don't understand the world I live in.  I don't understand how in 2024 abortion is still an issue (especially to those who have had a proclaimed "philosophy" of getting the government off our back but are OK with how women are being treated), I don't get homophobia, or transphobia, or racial hatred, sexism or all these other things that truly should not matter so long as a person is a good person and doesn't harm others. 

Anymore, I have a hard time understanding Americans collectively - and I'm one of them!

I mean, shit, how the hell does a nation of invading immigrants not feel contradictory when bitching about immigrants? 

So, I gotta admit - when my Dad was about two days out from being found dead in his bed, he told me on the last day I last saw him in his frail state (he looked like the newest photo of Clint Eastwood and he was just 69, not 93), that he was going party and do the best he could at enjoying the rest of his life. That was a Sunday and he was passed by Tuesday of that week.

THAT is how I feel nowadays - I'm trying to enjoy the world the best I can even though in many ways, this world, and American life, is right in the fucking toilet at times.