Kyle, I . . . I'm not sure how to reply . . . I can't imagine what you go through when you think of what might have been and what is . . . can I just say that many of us here, me included, consider you a friend, and are truly happy you are here, exchanging BS and info with the rest of us DB weirdos . . .

and may I tell you . . . you brought me to tears . . . not because of what you have and are going through . . . but because of your courage and openness in sharing your pain, your deepest, darkest, your soul . . . your a better man then me . . . peace and love, my brother . . .