And I will take the idea that I am needed as a compliment. 

I had a couple issues, I was writing a response to E's thread about aging and accidently deleted it rather than posting it. So, now I have to go back and rewrite it, hopefully making it shorter and more concise. 

Plus I have had this post I have begun writing several times here and I keep looking at it and deciding "Nope, not posting that." because it is so freaking horrible. I call the post "The Flow Chart" because that is basically what it is, a flow chart of what I think the Trump administration might do once he is inaugurated. 

It literally is a flow chart that begins with "Pardon the J6 insurrectionists" and then flows from there leading to stirring up protests, using the insurrection act, and declaring martial law. Hence putting the military on our streets. 

Every time I type it out I decide I don't want to subject people to it and get them thinking about it. I do think we will have to use some caution in how we react once he gets rolling because I do think he wants people to protest and I do think the idea will be to do provocative things to encourage protest so then that protest "must be quashed." 

I feel like the flow chart is sick and paranoid and would be something that should never come to pass here but, I also think he is attempting to put people in place to carry out the flow chart. I do think pardoning the J6 criminals is the logical jumping off point because it says to all those nuts, you can do anything including beating and killing police officers as long as it is done for me, in my name. Then you get a free pass, and these groups want that free pass badly. Once they get it, once they get confirmation they can kill police officers, well, look out. 

The rest of the chart is horrific. 

I hate saying it because I don't want to think those things, I don't want anybody else to have to go through thinking those things, because thinking those things makes me feel like shit. So, I assume it would make others feel that way. 

So, basically I want to be wrong. I want to be horribly laugh out loud wrong. But if he starts off pardoning the J6 criminals, well, I see only one reason to do that, to inspire violence from your followers. It is not like these people did not do the things they went to jail for, they were caught on camera doing these things. It will be a very loud and clear message that you can kill for me and I will pardon you for it. These people will not miss that message. It's an open message that if I tell my followers I don't like you, they can feel free to kill you and I will make sure they get away with it. 

I mean, there is an intense feeling of unreality to things right now. I'm trying to sort out how to express that and if I should talk about things in a way that takes the weird and scary out of it...as much as I can.

I'd rather say happy holidays, merry Christmas, peace, love, and joy to the world. I'm already feeling shitty about what I just typed and I did not even get into the chart. I am guessing I am not the only one imagining a flow chart, but basically, yes, hug the people you love, hug the ones you don't love, do all you can to inspire people to be better people and hopefully, we can come together as a country and a society to do good and not hurt each other.  

I do believe, in my heart, we can get through this. My head is where I am having a battle.