[whatever happened to that amiable crush ..or

a spontaneous lapse o dignity for one’s efforts]

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For all the correspondence in an’ aroun the dbis,

Cassie, and … your warm-moving sentimental ode,

thank you lady. ...But know this to be a truth as well:

  (After arguing into the night with my eldest son,  ..af-

ter listenin to him cleave @the very foundation of me)

It has..always been so easy to write chapters about

my love for Maya, as it is . . . possibly the ONLY

thing right about me;  the remainder is travesty.

This isn’t really self loathing; much more

A realization that life moves too fast

For the heart an’ mind to gather

Enough momentum to ever

Really catch-up … and

Overtake the nature,

the tendency, the

stain of human

fuck-up

potential.   

So be

…it.

M