To anyone interested:

Dan (and Pat) have been very nasty to me for quite awhile now.

I wrote what I wrote because I continue to be very offended by Dan and his double standards. For instance, he threatens to remove my messages --- messages that I post to inform those who are interested --- and yet he ALLOWS the nasty and inflammatory invectives through the quotes section, etc. AGAINST ME and sees no problem or conflict with doing that.

Dan wrote me yesterday a PRIVATE e-mail demanding that I issue a public retraction of my previous statements of FACT:

01) He DID threaten to remove my posts in a private e-mail that he claims he did not send.

02) He and Pat both never responded to a total of three e-mails I sent them both over the course of five days --- to inform them of a place where they could get David's DVD's made for as little as two dollars each.

I sent Dan copies of BOTH of these e-mails --- the one he sent me threatening to remove my posts --- and the two seperate e-mails that I sent him and Pat about the DVD's. In his response, he attempted to backpedal and said that he "didn't remember" sending it.

About the DVD e-mail, he claims that he wasn't "that far along on the project." However, his ignoring my honest attempt to help move the project along was hurtful to me. It would have only taken a grand total of a minute to write a "thanks for the suggestion" e- mail. This would have required FAR LESS EFFORT than all the time wasted explaining why he doesn't like me.

He responded to that message where I went to great lengths to explain to him that under no circumstances was I going to issue a public retraction of anything I said about him or otherwise. In that response he told me that he would "remove all offending quotes," and tell Pat once again to "stop removing" my posts.

At no time did I tell Dan "Fuck you" as he claims above. This is another example of Dan's selective memory.

What I did do however, is explain to him exactly how he has been very selective about how he comes down hard on me, and then at the same time, ALLOWS Pat and a couple of others to post hurtful and inflammatory messages and quotes --- that ATTEMPT to hurt my feelings or undermine my credibility.

This policy of his should be equal to all involved --- but it hasn't been. But, according to Dan --- somehow that is my fault. I also took the time to explain to Dan once again that there are many people here who ARE interested in what I talk about, and do not publicly support me because of all the problems it causes.

I also pointed out to Dan even DB has said several times that dissent should be welcomed and encouraged. David even pointed out that in his opinion, I "changed my mind" about leaving and then coming back. But, according to the quotes section, the simple act of me changing my mind had suddenly morphed into an accusation that I somehow LIED to everyone here. If any one of you do it, it is simply a change of mind --- but, if I do it, it is a lie.

This is an example of the "double standards" I mentioned above.

Dan also concluded his last e-mail to me by saying that he was "glad that I responded" and that he "hopes everything can be worked out."

This is a complete reversal from what he said publicly above.

Here is the bottom line as far as I am concerned:

There are people here that do not "like" me --- just as there are a couple of people here that I am not fond of. However, one of the people in particular that does not like me --- Pat Brown --- continues to go out of his way to be very nasty any and every chance he gets.

Why? If he doesn't like me --- and EVERYONE here knows this --- does he continue to take cheap shots every chance he gets? I don't like him, he doesn't like me --- fine. Move on. Why would he make statements such as the one that he did where he said that with the filter, things are more enjoyable? I have never told him that he HAD to read or believe anything I say.

The problems all come down to ONE THING and one thing only:

I get attacked, belittled, called a liar, and so forth --- at which time I will protect myself --- which I will do every time this happens. Then, when I do protect myself --- suddenly I am the problem? Dan and Pat both conveniently forget who started this little problem.

Anyone who cares to can read the archives --- I do not and have never started any bullshit with anyone --- until they attack my veracity or try to undermine my credibility.

It has gotten to the point to where now David Baerwald wants out of this place.

Anyone who has a problem with me or anything I am saying is more then welcome NOT to read, respond to, or believe anything I am discussing or writing about.

But, digging a little deeper, here is THE REAL PROBLEM:

I represent something so horrifying to a few of you here, that you have to do whatever you can to attempt to undermine my credibility. Facing the fact that most of what we experience in this world is built upon deception and lies is a hard pill to swallow.

I have chosen this path for a reason --- once you dig through all the lies and bullshit --- there is something beautiful underneath. And, what I am talking about here is the TRUE NATURE OF REALITY and of the metaverse. All the FEAR, FRUSTRATION, HATE, SCORN, and RIDICULE falls away --- there is only ONE TRUTH --- LOVE. everything else is an illusion . . . our our own making, by the way.

I have chosen to be the rude sonofabitch that does my best to smash consensus reality at every chance I get. Some of you respect me because of this --- while for others --- this is the very reason why I am disliked to such a passionate degree.

For the ones that want to look for every reason to HATE ME --- it must be galling when I am proven right time after time --- such as it was with HILLARY running for President. Even while she continues to deny that this is exactly what she is doing --- I posted the link to the webpage where it says she is ALREADY REGISTERED to run.

Dan however, wanted to argue that I said Hillary herself went down and registered --- which is NOT what I said AT ALL. What I DID SAY was someone from her office did that --- but, Dan continues to believe only what the mind-controlled version of reality tells him --- ANYTHING --- just as long as he isn't forced into a situation where he HAS to believe ME.

Dan has another problem with me --- and it is this:

I survived something his MEDICAL SCHOOL EDUCATION is telling him I should not have survived --- HIV/AIDS. The manner in which I did this is a slap in the face that throughout his medical training --- he is BEING LIED TO about the nature of illness and what he needs to do to help those who get sick.

For the ones that encourage me through mostly private e-mails --- this same issue is the source of a great deal of RESPECT. I am doing what I am doing --- because SOMEONE HAS TO. In my private life, I am continually told that I have the courage and the cojones to face anything. I am doing this because the ones who benefit are YOU --- not me.

If even 10% of what I talk about is accurate --- then it means that this world is much different than what we were all brought up to believe. THIS MUCH *IS* TRUE! My experiences at LILY DALE alone went far to destroy what I previously believed was MY reality. In the face of it, I am a much better and stronger person for having had that experience.

I am proud to wear the patriotic label of DISSIDENT --- I am not afraid to make waves, cause trouble, mix it up, and stir the pot.

One last thing . . .

As I have told Dan and everyone here before --- I am not going anywhere --- and WHY should I leave?!?!?

So, the choice is now this --- some of you can run and hide and stay away from this place because I give you the convenient excuse to do so, or --- you can stay and face the rude slap in the face of TRUTH --- and in the process --- you just might learn something useful and important --- just as everyone here who are brave enough to stand alongside of me have already done.

Or . . . we can all continue to fight and bicker and drag this whole thing into the dirt --- permanently destroying what is for some --- the one thing they look forward to participating in each and every day.

The choice is YOURS and YOURS ALONE . . .

KDB = Buffalo, NY USA